Go with the flow

go with the flowLately I have been feeling like I am hitting the wall and can’t get through it. I have tried my best and yet I’m hitting this wall. God led me on this path, so how come I can’t keep walking? What’s wrong with me? So I kept trying and pushing and trying to press through and only getting more tired and frustrated but the wall was still there. Sometimes as humans we are like that. God leads us unto the path and we in our mind think it’s for us forever. But trust me, it’s not.

So am I saying that God who called you unto one path has changed His mind when He leads you unto another path? No, that is not what I mean. God doesn’t change His mind randomly. His is faithful and trustworthy, but His ways are not our ways. We as humans like to make everything firm and stable, but that’s not God’s nature. He wants us to walk with Him and follow Him, not assuming anything, but going as He leads and trusting Him.

Back to my own life. Couple years ago I started blogging in Finnish first. After one year God spoke clearly that it was time to switch from Finnish to English. In my mind I felt I had arrived. What I mean by that? I though that was the destiny of my blog. Now I would only write in English and would only grow in that. Hmmm…. it would had been my way. But not God’s.

So I was hitting this wall with my writing. I didn’t feel there was any flow in my writing and it was work rather than joy to do. Finally after me hitting this wall awhile God was able to speak to me. Why? Because I have learned to turn to Him when something doesn’t work. I’m not trying by myself too long anymore. I used to do that. If God spoke about one thing and later on the path I felt things didn’t go well, I kept pressing and pressing. I was firm it was my fault that things didn’t go well or didn’t flow, but I tried my best to fix things and to get them flow again.

So what did God say then? He said it was time to start writing in Finnish. What?? My first question was “What did I do wrong? Did I fail and now I am back to square one? Why?” I am grateful that I have learned to know God’s grace. Even I had those thoughts I wasn’t under quilt or condemnation. I was simply asking and God started to reveal Himself again.

When we are in Christ there is flow in Him. When I am walking with Him in this life, I’m moving as He is moving. If I try to keep walking where He is not going, I will hit this wall and there is no flow. I by myself and by my own effort will try to get things flowing and try to get through this wall. But it’s impossible for without Christ I can do nothing. I heard these words “Go with the flow in Me”. When I received His word for me and I accepted this change He is doing in my life, in that moment I got my joy back and my passion back. We have these own hopes and wishes and dreams about our lives and calls in Christ, but sometimes we just can’t figure the path out. We think we can. We think we know the whole picture and we are so smart that we are able to do it all. But we aren’t. We are depending on Him and only Him. And I have to say I rather yield and submit to Christ and walk on His path with passion and joy, than try to follow that old path by myself even it seems more what I hoped for.

When I submitted myself and put my trust on God, He was able to show me more His love toward me and why He is leading me on this path. It’s not the same path, though in my mind it was. In my mind I was going backward  to writing in Finnish. But in God’s mind I was going forward. Do you see the difference? Although we think God is leading us back into something we did before, it’s not quite that. Sometimes there is a purpose to do things again, but not always. God’s timing is different than ours. And His timing is perfect. Before writing in Finnish was learning process for me. Now focus is different and it’s time to let Finnish people to hear the sound of Grace in Finnish.

I will occasionally write in English so the best way to know about new posts is to follow this blog. I will start the other one for the Finnish blog. I will let you know more about it later.

The best thing in this life is to go with the flow in Christ. There is Life and Joy and Peace for He is all that and more.

Effortless, yet in time

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The beauty of the nature becomes effortlessly. It happens day after day, year after year in it’s own time, not in our time or according of our own plan. If you have tried to catch The pic of sunset or sunrise you know what I’m talking about.

Matthew 11:29 Walk with me and work with me– watch how I do it. Learn the unforced rhythms of grace. (The Message) There is no force nor strive to make anything happen in Christ. I’m walking with Him and working with Him as He leads me. The Bible says that Jesus spent time with the Father early in the morning, but that wasn’t the only time. He was one with the Father, in unity. They walked together and Jesus said He couldn’t independently do a thing but only what He saw Father doing. (John 17:21, 5:19)

Jesus was never in hurry. He had time for people. He didn’t strive. There was purpose in His walk yet He didn’t have an overbooked schedule to follow. Nobody knew where He was going or what His next stop was, yet He was in a right place at the right time. He was never late or too early. There was a flow how He moved from one place to another. But this flow wasn’t orchestrated by man, but by God. And that was a flow Jesus followed by being one with the Father.

Some times men said He was late. Martha and Mary both said Jesus came too late for Lazarus had been dead already four days. But if you read a whole chapter, you see Jesus didn’t run to Lazarus immediately when He heard about his death. He waited two more days before He even left. He already knew what Father was doing and He was patient and trusted Father with His whole heart.

Sometimes we hear what the Lord says to us, but we are not patient to wait. We want to make things happen faster. We use our own effort to make things happen in our time. When Jesus says “learn the unforced rhythms of grace from me.” If we walk with Him and let Him lead us in His time there is no force nor strive, but peace and joy. There is this flow as it was in His life when He was walking on the earth.

In my own life I have tried to strive and make things happen so many times. Both in my own life and in the ministry. But more I have learned about God’s Grace and the finished work of the cross, I have learned these unforced rhythms of grace. I’m still learning what it really means to abide in Him and that I can’t do anything without Him. What it means that He lives in me and I live in Him. So many years I did everything to God to prove and to serve and to earn. I had a full schedule and plan to follow to God. The more full my schedule was the more I felt my life was effective. I was on duty all the time and didn’t know how to rest for a moment. My schedule was sometimes so full that even if God tried to interact into that I wouldn’t hear Him.

Abiding in Him and resting in Him doesn’t mean floating aimlessly nor wondering all over. It doesn’t mean that you have to run from one place to another to find Him. He is in you and you are in Him. Him and you are one as He and Father are one. In this oneness is rest and peace and joy for we know He is leading us, not us by ourselves. Jesus said He couldn’t do anything independently but only what saw Father doing. Also He said we can do nothing without Him. That should give us freedom. It’s not up to us to make things happen, but let Him lead us and follow Him and do what He does through us.

Father didn’t move Jesus’ arms and legs, Jesus did. Jesus was the active part in this unity and He moved as He saw Father moving. So are we. Jesus lives in us and in Him we live and breathe and move. We are active parts in this oneness. He leads us, but if we don’t follow and move with Him, but rather sit down and wonder, He can’t move through us. It’s not up to us yet it is. We can’t strive nor force Him to move, but if we don’t move with Him, He will not force nor push us to move. We are working with Him in this.

There is so much more to learn, so journey will continue.